My childhood is almost over

and it scared the poop out of me.

I’m almost eighteen. On the 26th of this august , i’ll be legal. I’ll 
be making my own choices, choices that come with consequences that i’ll 
have to deal with and not my parents. I’m starting to plan, little by 
little, what i want to do after i graduate, and it’s all a little 
overwhelming. I wish I would’ve started planning before, when i was 
like ten, hah. So now I wouldn’t be freaking out because I don’t know 
what to expect from my future. But what scares me more than actually 
starting my life, is what people are going to remember me as when i was 
in high school. The weird girl? The girl that you don’t mess with 
because she’ll chew your head off? The girl how got in a fight in the
hallway over a stupid comment and over a stupid boy? The girl who people
made fun because of her Religious beliefs? All of the things that 
I know I’ll be remembered as are things I truthfully don’t want 
to be remembered as. I made some crappy decisions and I’m finally, at 
the ripe age of 17, starting to realize that life is so much more than 
attention, boys, drama, and money. I don’t need to text 30 guys at 
one time just so i feel wanted. I don’t need drama to keep myself 
entertained. I don’t need sex from some ignorant guy who obviously just 
wants sex. And for God’s sake, money isn’t everything and I really do 
not need to spend it on stupid materialistic things. Life is so much 
more than what we see it in today’s perspective, and I need to live 
my life to it’s full advantage every single day.