day seven.

Four turn offs

1. Bad breath.

2. Body hair.
3. Greasy hair.
4. Arrogance.

day six.

Five People who mean a lot

1. My Grandpa
2. My Grandma.

3. My Mom.
4. My Dad.
5. My sister.

day five.

Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Broke my moms trust over and over again.
2. Became friends with people I knew were wrong.
3. Had sex before marriage.
4. Ruined so many friendships.
5. Let other people bring me down to there level.
6. Putting myself in unsafe situations.

day four.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. How is it that someone can abandon there children?

2. Why does heartbreaks hurt so much?
3. Who I am hates who I've been.
4. Why do people complete school until there junior or senior year and drop out?

5. Why does Satan try so hard to bring me down?
6. With you I have the best days of my life.
7. What kind of noise does a zebra make?

day three.

Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Religion
2. Good music
3. Four-head kisses
4. Slurpees/Monsters
5. Long talks
6. Crude sense of humors
7. $$$ gold digger style
8. Flowers

day two.

Nine things about yourself.

1. I absolutely love dinosaurs.
2. I love to drive in traffic.
3. I hate when people breathe loud.
4. I love hot green tea.
5. I have very strong Religious beliefs. 
6. I have changed so much; for the good. 
7. I love to write. 
8. I’m addicted to texting.
9. I love toddlers but not babies. 

day one.

 Ten things you’d like to say to ten different people.

1. We've became super close this past year and i cant picture life without you. You've
became my best friend and I trust you with everything. I love how open and honest I can
be with you. You're my true friend, and that makes my heart happy. 

2. I hate that I broke your trust, ALOT. and yet you forgive me time after time, I envy 
your patients and your ability to put up with my crap. Our relationship is getting so much
better and I love it. 

3. All of my feelings that I have for you seems to be overwhelming I don't know exactly
how to handle them. I feel so connected to you, emotionally and mentally. I wish I could
tell you how I feel without feeling stupid. 

4. You've stepped up and took a role in my life that I was missing. I love you and you make
me understand how to spend my money wisely and make the proper choices, you've helped
me with boy problems. When I find a husband, I hope he has the same characteristics as you. 

5. I wish you would see how he treats you, and the things he does behind you back, and the
way he talks about you. I just want you to be happy and kick him to the curb. He's using 
you and it kills me to see people tell you but you don't listen.

6. You're my closest friend I've had in a long time. It's almost amazing to see how close we 
are. I don't care what people think about you, You're my best friend and no one will ever 
change that. 
 

7. You’re so young, and I feel like its my job to protect you from everything, but you’re
more mature that I thought, and I think you can handle it on your own, and it's so
hard for me to take a step back and watch you get your heart broken but I know I can't 
always be there. 

8. The thing you did to me makes me sick to my stomach to even imagine that someone is 
capable of doing that to other people without any remorse or guilt. You messed up my life 
and ruined my trust. I couldn't trust anyone for the longest time. It's hard for me to say
"It's okay" because it was wrong. I am still angry, but God says I have to forgive, So I have. 

9. You are the worst father anyone could possibly have and I got stuck with you. It makes
me sick to know the kind of person you've become. It blows my mind how you think it's okay
to put alcohol before your own children. I've learned to accept that you will never be a 
father and I'm okay with that.

10. You pulled me down to your level, I never want to be there again. 

10 days of Julie.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

My childhood is almost over

and it scared the poop out of me.

I’m almost eighteen. On the 26th of this august , i’ll be legal. I’ll 
be making my own choices, choices that come with consequences that i’ll 
have to deal with and not my parents. I’m starting to plan, little by 
little, what i want to do after i graduate, and it’s all a little 
overwhelming. I wish I would’ve started planning before, when i was 
like ten, hah. So now I wouldn’t be freaking out because I don’t know 
what to expect from my future. But what scares me more than actually 
starting my life, is what people are going to remember me as when i was 
in high school. The weird girl? The girl that you don’t mess with 
because she’ll chew your head off? The girl how got in a fight in the
hallway over a stupid comment and over a stupid boy? The girl who people
made fun because of her Religious beliefs? All of the things that 
I know I’ll be remembered as are things I truthfully don’t want 
to be remembered as. I made some crappy decisions and I’m finally, at 
the ripe age of 17, starting to realize that life is so much more than 
attention, boys, drama, and money. I don’t need to text 30 guys at 
one time just so i feel wanted. I don’t need drama to keep myself 
entertained. I don’t need sex from some ignorant guy who obviously just 
wants sex. And for God’s sake, money isn’t everything and I really do 
not need to spend it on stupid materialistic things. Life is so much 
more than what we see it in today’s perspective, and I need to live 
my life to it’s full advantage every single day.

ten ways to live your life.

1. listen without interrupting. (proverbs 18)

2. speak without accusing. (james 1:19)
3. give without sparing. (proverbs 21:26)
4. pray without ceasing. (colossians 1:9)
5. answer without arguing. (proverbs 17:1)
6. share without pretending. (ephesians 4:15)
7. enjoy without complaint. (philippians 2:14)
8. trust without wavering. (corinthians 13:7)
9.forgive without punishing. (colossians 3:13)
10. promise without forgetting. (proverbs 13:12)

Rest.

Random things, yes.

One. I love my God more than anything.
Two. My favorite movie is Mister Magorium's wonder emporium.
Three. I can cook eggs in the microwave.
Four. 170 days until I'll be 18.

Five. My best friend is Megan .
Six. Tons of people have lied to me.
Seven. My Dvr is recording criminal minds.
Eight. He knows how to make me laugh and I love it.
Nine. I hate using numbers, but sometimes I'm too lazy to spell them out.
Ten. I like to watch people and find out their tendencies. That's my hobby.
Eleven. I still throw fits like a child when I don't get my way.
Twelve. That is getting better.
Thirteen. I like sprite.
Fourteen. I love Giraffes.
Fifteen. I never understood why people cheat.
Sixteen. I'm not really good at anything. Pretty depressing right?
Seventeen. I'm currently have a job.
Eighteen. I hate throwing up.
Nineteen. I'm enjoy knitting.
Twenty. I can be really outgoing.
Twenty one. I haven't spoke to my dad in almost two years.
Twenty two. I've calmed down so much.
Twenty three. I love taking bubble baths.
Twenty four.I bought my car with my own money.
Twenty five. Tetris is the bomb.
Twenty six. Winter is pretty and the sky looks closer at night.
Twenty seven. I'm cutting my hair soon.
Twenty eight. I just yawned.
Twenty nine. I'm thinking this was a waste of time.

Do you ever try to picture yourself as someone else? Just to see what their life is like or wonder what everyone opinion about you really is? Who's your true friends and who's using you.? What about what you'll eat tomorrow, or how you're going to get the money for stuff you need? How many children you'll have? Will you ever find "the one?" How much you'll sleep tonight? If you're making a mistake? What about regret? Will you be successful? If you're wasting your time?I guess i am the only one who does. I'm just weird.

Things that keep me occupied in life

1. Writing blog posts like this one.

2. Attempting to do well in school, which eventually ends up in me spending about an hour on homework and saying "whatever," and giving up.

3. Attempting to look nice. This includes constant lurking of various clothing sites and trying on my own clothes for about 30 minutes every night. I really don't believe in ever not looking nice (or at least attempting to). I see girls around school in messy t-shirts and sweat pants and flip flops when they feel like "being oomfy." In my opinion being comfy is a nice pair of borderline mom jeans and a v-neck or band shirt.

4. Keeping up with other people's business by lurking all over the place. This comes in handy for when I get prank calls and can find out who did it in ten minutes at the most. Does not come in handy when I say "DID YOU KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW...." and not only did nobody know, but they also didn't care.

5. Buying way too many different bar soaps and never being satisfied with any of them. Same with deodorants.

6. Staring at the end so of my hair to see if it has gotten any longer. I don't think my hair has grown in about a year. Some call me a wishful thinker.

With that said, I am going to let the blog world know that I am angry, and annoyed, and feel a little betrayed. They must have some serious guts (or should I say the intelligence of a five year old, since saying that they have guts sounds like I'm giving them credit) to assume that I would hurt someone who has been there for me through a ton of crap because they don't believe in the idea of letting something go.

Grow up, learn how to make yourself not look stupid and/or like a crazy girl, etc. Contrary to popular belief, it does you well.

what kind of guy is he?

Absolutely wonderful. Like, WHOA my life didn't know this kind of guy existed, wonderful. Ultimate victory for Julia Frymier. It feels good having butterflies again. :D